As I Sit Here Today
As I sit here today, I am reminded of a time when my life was upside down; a time when life was not as good as it is today.
A few years ago I was coming to the end of my time in a career I had envisioned would last a lifetime. Four and half short years later, I was at a cross-roads of where to take my life. What would I do? Where would I go? Would I be able to care for myself? Who would I become?
Between the anti-depressants, sleep medications, and anti-anxiety medications, I was being prescribed by my psychiatrist as well as the use of recreational substances to numb the deep pain I was feeling, I had lost my desire to live.
As I sit here today, I am thankful. I am thankful for the support of my most precious family who never gave up on me. I am thankful they urged me to move back home. I am thankful they opened their home to me and allowed me to feel what I was feeling. I am thankful that through their patience, love and understanding I was given time to morn, time to heal.
A few years ago, seems like a lifetime ago.
Because of my psychiatrist. Because of the weekly one-on-one individual sessions with my therapist. Because of the weekly group sessions with those I share common struggles. Because of the devotedness of professionals, of my peers, and of those I love, I regained my desire to live.
As I sit here today, I am grateful. I am grateful for my life. I am grateful for the opportunity to live. I am grateful for my past. I am grateful for the opportunity to share my life experiences. I am grateful for each day I wake.